Every once in a while, a place, opportunity, or experience calls your name so clearly that it can't be ignored. Its almost as though the universe is conspiring with you to make something happen and all you have to do is listen. Over the past month, this is exactly what had been happening to me. Israel kept making its way into my consciousness and any mention of it or the Dead Sea would grab my full attention like never before. It was that kind of feeling that makes it seem as though the universe was speaking directly to me by purposely bringing up its name over and over again.
I wasn't exactly sure why the universe was pulling me towards Israel. I didn't plan on going there during this trip, or really anytime soon. But when something is so loudly calling my name, I know that it is doing so for a reason. Even though I wasn't aware its higher purpose that was drawing me in at the time, I felt that there was one because my energy was being pulled in that direction. Its times like these that I let my intuition guide me and just trust that the universe knows whats its doing because it either comes down to one of two things: either you trust in the path that is laid out before you or you don't. Either you decide to move in that direction or you just make up excuses as to why you can't. Either you let yourself be guided by the universe, or you turn your back on it.
Because I'm staying in Turkey, Israel wasn't that far of a jump. I decided to look up some plane tickets just for fun... just to let my imagination and curiosity run with the idea. When I saw that a round trip flight from Istanbul to Tel Aviv was only $136, I knew for certain that going to the Dead Sea was a possibility. If I really wanted to go, then I already had the means and the opportunity to do so.
Without much thought, it became very clear what I needed to do: I needed to go to Israel. Part of me knew that I would end up there because now there was nothing stopping me from going in the direction of the very thing that was calling my name. But the other part of me wasn't so sure ... and a little scared. This would be my first time traveling to a middle eastern country by myself. I did not think this trip would take me to Israel, let alone deeper into the middle east, and yes, I was little concerned about traveling as a solo female but regardless I knew what my options were. Either I give into my fear or I trust my intuition. I wasn't exactly sure what to expect, but regardless of how last minute this decision was, there was a sense of security inside of me becasue I knew that I was ready and that this is exactly what I had been waiting for.
The universe was guiding me towards Isreal, and I knew that I had to trust it completely. I had to go all in without second guessing myself because any form of doubt would be an insult to that trust. Once I committed mentally to the decision and gave up all forms of fear, that is when the excitement started to take over: I'm going to the Dead Sea. I had made the right decision.
When I landed in Tel Aviv, the first thing I felt was an energetic focus on my heart. I was feeling love come to me but I wasn't exactly sure of its source. It was as if the energy in Tel Aviv was pointing directly at my heart and by doing so it made me aware of something that I wasn't conscious of before. By feeling this energy pointed towards my heart, it made it very clear to me that my heart was still learning how to be open and accepting of love. By showing me this, it made it very clear to me that the part of me that I need to heal next is my heart because there are parts of is that have been closed off for far too long. By experincing this love, it allowed me to see some of the things that have been causing an emotional disconnect between having that love present and fully experiencing it. My heart chakra has been crying out for attention, but it is something that I have generally ignored because I never wanted to go down that path, nor did I think that I really needed to.
Being in Israel, it has shown me that my heart still needs healing. Even though I could feel this love and energy so strongly, I could't pin point the source. I wasn't convinced that the location was radiating love rather that love was merely present. No matter the source, I knew that there was some how a connection between where I was and what I was experiencing.
It wasn't until I reached the Dead Sea did it all make sense. The love that I was feeling wasn't coming to me from the external world, instead it was coming from me. The love that I was feeling was love that was being reflected from myself. The sea was acting as a mirror and it was showing me the parts of myself that I was failing to see. It was showing me that there is a greater source of love in my heart than I was aware of. These waves of love that I was feeling come and go ultimately acted as a reminder of who I really am: Infinite love. I had been living my life as though I wasn't aware of this fact, because, in someways I just merely forgot.
While I could feel that the Dead Sea was showing me that I am love, it was also showing me parts of myself that have been blocking me from experiencing that love. I have emotional and mental barriers that are rooted in criticism, doubt, and self hate which have been perpetuated by habits and thought patterns. Ultimately it became clear: the only person that had been preventing me from experincing love was myself. I have shut my heart off most, if not all of my life, and now I'm realizing that it is the very part of me that needs the most healing. While it was orginally closed due to the unavoidable pain and mess that is this world, the fact that I have allowed it to remain closed has ultimaltey become the source of suffering that I was trying to avoid.
If I can sum up the energy at the Dead Sea in one word, that word would be reflection. By offering me a mirror, the Dead Sea has shown me the state of the most intimate part of myself: my heart. I knew that I was harboring pain: pain from feeling unworthy and the pain that was never fully grieved in the past. Nothing in this world is so important that you should close your heart off because of it and I now know that I have given far too many things that power. By trying to protect myself from the world, I have only caused myself more suffering than any that I was trying to avoid. While I still have a lot of healing to do, I at least know where to start. Love is out there and has always been, but I am still learning how to access it. Healing takes time, but it also takes attention, patience, and compassion, things that I am still learning how to give myself.
If you want to hear more about the Dead Sea or my healing journey, check out Episode 13 of the Podcast. Light and love!