Embracing the unknown isn’t a one-time event, it is a daily occurrence. It’s not once that we have to make a drastic change but rather it is a reoccurring practice of learning how to let go. In this episode, I come to terms with the fact that stepping back into a place that I know is actually another unknown within itself. Embracing the unknown means letting the universe open up a path for you - one that you have not and potentially could not see on your own
This week's topic is a reflection of the process of death as it happens every day to the ego. Because as Krishnamurti said, “You cannot live without dying. You cannot live if you do not die psychologically every minute. This is not an intellectual paradox. To live completely, wholly, every day as if it were a new loveliness, there must be dying to everything of yesterday, otherwise, you live mechanically, and a mechanical mind can never know what love is or what freedom is.” So understand to understand the self, we must understand which parts of yourself are truly your own and which parts of yourself are holding your back and then to allow those parts to die.
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On the path of moving forward and moving on, there comes a time to accept the things that will eventually come your way. And accepting that the future holds both love and loss is difficult for me on many levels. In this episode, I confront the fact that opening yourself up also means opening your heart to both the love and the pain. Ultimately, there is no way to avoid the pain the only thing that we can do is to go towards in an effort to heal it and understand it. Shallow living is best avoided by going down into your depths and accepting whatever you find. Even if you fear the pain that you are going to eventually experience, there are still lessons to be learned in the present moment. Because if that fear is calling you, that means that you must towards in order to hear it's message and meaning.
When traveling to unknown places within ourselves, sometimes we need a little bit of help getting there. In this episode, I have a live coaching session with Ryan Branch, also known as the Core Truth Coach. During our session, he helps me access a part of myself that I sometimes have a hard time getting to: My heart. By helping me open up myself and the love that lives inside of me, Ryan helps me see my heart for what it is. He also helps me become aware of some of the things that are stopping me from living through that space.
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Just because you are taking a step back, doesn’t mean you are going backwards. In this episode, I wrestle with the fact that just because I'm going back to something that I know, it doesn't mean that it is a failure. I have an obsession with moving forward and automatically assuming that where I am at is not good enough. I am constantly not just trying to move onwards but also sometimes pushing myself too forward and too fast. Learning how to take a step back is needed because it's showing me that it is okay to be exactly where I am at and that ultimately that I am okay. Basically what it comes down to is learning how to have acceptance and compassion for myself. to matter the situation, taking a step back is both needed and necessary. If that is the step in front of you, then that is the step that you need to take, whatever direction that may be.
It’s suiting that I ended up in Ireland at this point in time because like myself, I found that Ireland is on its own healing journey. In this episode, I talk about my most recent trip to Ireland and the realizations that I came to. Before I arrived, I wasn’t exactly sure what to expect but my trip there ended up being everything that I needed. Ireland has helped open up my heart a little bit and by doing so it has shown me that it is safe to move forward and move on. During this trip, I felt the immediate benefits of letting go of much of the pain that I have been holding onto. By letting go, I can already feel some of the emotion, mental, and spiritual space inside of me freeing up. Because of this, it is allowing me to continue forward and allow myself to be the person that I always have been. My surroundings are once again acting as a mirror and Ireland has shown me that my capacity to love and to heal goes deeper than I initially thought.
Is this episode, I end up answering my own question of “letting go of what?”. I realized that the thing that I needed to let go of wasn’t just what happened in the past, but of how I related to the past. My year spent living in Portland, OR was a bitter/sweet experience. I found that I was still holding onto the pain that I experienced there because a part of me didn’t believe that there was another option. In this episode, I briefly tell the story of my time in Portland while dissecting the layers of my hurt while there. I can finally speak about this aspect of my past because I am confident that I am ready to let go of any and all traces of pain that I experienced while I was there. I find that wanting to move on from something is enough to actually do it. This episode is symbolic of me cutting all emotional ties to that particular time of my life. I am proud to say that I am ready and willing to let go, which is very fitting because it is also my last day being 26.
We all hear the concept of letting go, but what does it actually mean? In this Episode, I try to understand the philosophy of letting go and why there seems to be a disconnect with how it is done in practice. Letting go is something that I struggle with, probably because I don’t understand how I am suppose to go about letting go of something. What exactly are we letting go of? How do we know when we have let it go? Or how do we let go of something when we aren’t even sure of what it is? I find that I convince myself that I have let something go, but then it keeps coming back up days, months, or even years later. This makes me question, maybe I’m not doing it right?
We all know that the place we need to go is within, but what is keeping us from going down that path? In this episode, I talk about the importance of being alone, truly alone, with yourself. While I recognize that inwards is the directions I am heading, I still find that going in that direction is difficult. There is a resistance that I feel when trying so go inwards that is rooted in fear. Being alone with ourselves is simple but it is not as easy as one might think. To truly be alone means being alone with every aspect of yourself.. your fears and pains but also the beauty and love that exist within you that you can sometimes fail to see. It means being alone with everything that you are and that can be scary because it means facing the truths you do not want to see.