How do we learn self-worth? I believe that it’s done by removing the barriers within ourselves that keep us from experiencing a true sense of worth. In this episode, I explain what unworthiness is, where it comes from and how it affects our lives. Like self-love, self-worth is something that is continuously promoted (rightfully so) but there seems to be something missing from the equation. Seldom we are taught or shown how to navigate the ways in which to feel that worth when all we see is our believed lack of it. This leaves us feeling not only less than worthy but also without hope of even having a path to elsewhere. How are we suppose to move forward navigating the world and the self when we don’t feel as though we have an ounce of self-love left inside of us? When it comes to the feeling of unworthiness, if we don’t go towards it in an attempt to understand and release it, then it is always going to be there. In this episode, I attempt to go towards my own feelings of self-worth in order to better understand the self and the world.
On the path of moving forward and moving on, there comes a time to accept the things that will eventually come your way. And accepting that the future holds both love and loss is difficult for me on many levels. In this episode, I confront the fact that opening yourself up also means opening your heart to both the love and the pain. Ultimately, there is no way to avoid the pain the only thing that we can do is to go towards in an effort to heal it and understand it. Shallow living is best avoided by going down into your depths and accepting whatever you find. Even if you fear the pain that you are going to eventually experience, there are still lessons to be learned in the present moment. Because if that fear is calling you, that means that you must towards in order to hear it's message and meaning.
I know that "being in the now" is something that we all strive for, but why is it so difficult to obtain? In this episode, I talk about why it is so difficult for me to live in the present moment and ways that my mind distracts me from fully being present.During my recent trip to England, I found that I wasn’t quite all there. It was almost as though I left as soon as I arrived because my mind was constantly somewhere else: the future. This trip to England has shown me that I'm not in the moment as much as I thought I was. As quickly as the mind can be pulled to the present, it can leave just as fast. No matter how much I try, I know that I can't keep running from the present moment because there is nowhere else to go.
At this point, I can confidentially say that I am fully engulfed in all things unknown. In this episode, I take a step back to in order to not just reflect on my travels, but also how I got here. This trip is showing me that no matter where I end up, it’s not as mysterious or surprising as I thought it would be… instead it just makes sense. Only by letting go of who I think I am, can I truly and freely step into the person that I was along. As I begin to see the bigger picture, not just of my travels but also myself, Im realizing that I’m being drawn to all the right places and circumstances, I just failed to recognize it before.
In order to move forward, we need to face two sets of fears: fear of the external and fear of the self. In this episode, I explore the concept of self doubt and why it can be harder to face than anything outside of us. Self doubt is defined the lack of confidence in one own’s motives, abilities, and even thoughts. But what exactly do those doubt show up as and how do they prevent us from moving forward? I am attempting to look my self doubts in the face in order to eventually move past them.
We all hear the terms Spiritual Awakening and Ascension, but what does that actually mean? In this episode, I try to answer the question “What is a spiritual awakening”? I try to understand this concept both philosophically and as I try to work my way through my own awakening process. I’ve come to terms that I am beginning to awaken and hopefully my experience can give some insight to you on your journey.
After arriving in Las Palmas, Spain, I realized that I fell into the same trap that I always do. I assumed that if I change my outside world, then my inside world would follow, but that is not the case. In this episode, I try to understand my version of happiness, not only what it looks like but also what it feels like. I have always blamed the outside world for my unhappiness which is why I am constantly trying to change my surroundings. I’ve begun to realize that I focus too much on what I think is making me unhappy rather than what happiness actually feels like. As I begin to understand what happiness is, only then can I start moving towards it. The shift from blame to responsibility has begun and so too has my understanding of where I am and where I want to be.
Sometimes in life we can feel as though we are lost and sometimes we can feel that way for a while. Feeling as though you are directionless doesn’t just happen to us physically, but it can also happen spiritually. In this episode I talk about why being lost in the Balkans is also a reflection of my internal world. I talk about the ways in which I feel spiritually lost and why. But no matter how far I stray or how lost I feel, I know that I am not alone even when I am by myself.
Moving on means going onwards even if you don’t feel like you are ready. In this episode, I talk about my next move: leaving Turkey. I have been in Turkey for two months, and even though I am traveling, I have found a bit of comfort and security there that is hard to leave. No matter how far and how wide we may travel, leaving something that you have grown used to and attached to isn’t easy. This is a reminder that trying to embrace the unknown takes constant effort because it is easier to remain stagnant than keep moving forward and just because you know its time to move on, doesn’t mean you necessarily want to. This is my last episode in Turkey before I depart to Bulgaria and Romania for two weeks.
No matter how or where we are headed, there comes a time when we need to travel onwards. In this episode, I talk about the one place that I have a difficult time leaving: the past. No matter how much I hate to admit it, the past still has a hold on me because I am affected by past pains and memories. The more I try to move forwards, the harder they pull me backwards because it is clear that I still haven’t dealt with them. Traveling onwards means being honest with ourselves and where we are at before we are able to fully let go and move forward. Understanding how and why we are hurting is just part of the process of moving on so we can eventually get to where we are going.